Ok i sitting here typing away and talking to my new guy friend... and dude, i got to florida in a few days... i am so geeked. like ok let me tell you Ima try and be the star singer, i practiced all the songs b4 they were even practiced,( i have soruces that tell me the songs).... omg i am happy. If i had a BF itd make this trip 1000 time better... but o well... i might not be on in a while... so yeah ^^ laterz

lol i dont under stand the question but umm let me seee... one from my fave Vampire book...he started off saying.."You suck! That makes me want to suck you more." thats my fave opening line ever!

Tomorrow at church i sing, and i will post it as soon as I record it. ^^ so yeah. Wish me luck...!

BTW who is cuter Jun Su or Max@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@

Duh, i'd pick ninjas. there not as gay... even tho gay guys are kinda hot

I would have to say those earrings i have on now. I grandma gave me like $20 to give to a friend on her bday but i spent it on these earrings. -_- i feel so low.

OK peeple this is your chance to get away with murder....errrr well love ....anyways you can write a love letter anyone you wish me? well after i get like four comments I'll do one. Mine will be to the boy i admire in this whole entire world and no he's no DBSK member lol..... fooled ya i didnt i?

anyways. Come on you can give the name or keep it anonymous of the person you want to fakey pour your heart out to...matter of fact it doesn't have to be fake. All i need for you to mention in this letter is the three things that make any love letter awesome.*Optional* 1. "what happened last night was(insert emotion here)" 2. "You are my soul because of that faithful moment. (insert fake moment or real here)" 3. "I Love You!(insert name here)"

1. Why don't you have a small concert in america, you have fans here you know?


2. Have you ever read any of the fan fics *wink wink* people write about you?


3. If i confessed to you, would you go out with me?


4. Would you come to my house if i touched your heart with an emotional letter?


5. Have you ever thought about featuring in an american movie?


ok now ladies(or gentlemen) list some questions here and maybe DBSK will read them... if not then these questions will be a hell of a laugh later on in life. Go on knock yourself out. Just pretend DBSK is gonna read these, ask anything!

My tears,
Drop on to your shirt,
And all my words,
Pour out my mouth,
And on the pavement,
You crush them.
I smile,
Because I know,
Its something,
You never meant.

Those aches in my heart,
Expands twice the size.
I feel like,
My insides are,
Eroding fast,
Because my love for you will,
Certainly last.

Ok i have another problem here and it sucks hard ass.

Its thiz boy i really like. We go to church together. His name is CJ. He is so cute. I have known him for a year now, and there are obvious signs we like each other. Like when we are in the same room alone he'd get close to me, but like a dumb ass. I'd run away. Neither one of us confessed yet. Like a choir rehearsal when no one would come his grandma who is out choir director would let us play. Like when we play Hide and Go seek, he'd always encourage me to hide with him. The blood would rush to my head, but i still manage to say ok. I really like him. But we in my views is too shy. I mean i know i am.

One time i was really say one day i had sat in the back and he sat in front of me asking questions of why i was sad. Then he would give me my medicine, which was laughter, laughing always makes me feel better. Then like before i got my ipod he'd let me listen to his mP3. He had all my fave music. Yeah i know what your thinking.....so go for it anyways....

yeah thats the problem, i tried once before but said he didn't want to embarrass me because he's a foot shorter then me. Yeah your thinking HOW OLD IS HE?......well he is 15 and i am 16..... its a condition but i dont know much about it. I dont know if he'll stay that way forever, or if he'll grow. Either way I still really like him. It seems words aren't quite kicking it with him.

If it'd help this summer well spend alot of time together due to church. We're spending 5 days at a conference, so we'll see each other all those days. And we'll go to Cedar point. Also Universal Studios, we'll be in a hotel, and in the hotel we are aloud to have 4 people per room, so it will be him, his grandma, and his sister... i am trying to be in the room with them.... And lastly we see each other every saturday and Sunday.


Can anyone give me ideas to make him know i love him the way he is?

OK so i was at school, and what ever, its a girl i don't mind being bothered with but i mean at times she gets crazy. And trust me i have a lot of very crazy friends, but she passes my bar for crazy limit. I hate it with an uttered passion when people touch me above the head in an aggressive fashion. But wait it gets worst, I take the bus to school and whatever. She gets me the freaking bus card it the first place, when she was taking the bus for the first time i wanted to be nice and let her borrow it, dumb i know, so i hear from others that she lost it. I start to think well she didn't lose it. Comes to find out that she did lose it. I didn't get no sorry, no i'll help you out and find another one some way. So i thought if i ignored her she'd caught my drift and do something about her mindless act. No attempt. My other friends (god forbid them) tells me, well Rowena HOMIE GIRL thinks you mad at her. I WAS! So i give in to their demands and i start to talk to her, i am still a little peeved. So my 'friend bar' is still like 45% with her. So i guess she was Bisexual or what ever and so i have this friend that i kinda like being around, i think of her as my little sis. This other girl likes my sis. I was playin around with her i pretended to put my foot on her ass...(i didnt really do it), but this crazy chick got stupid and she put her hands around my neck and pushed me against the support beam in the room. I thought hell i am gonna tell the principle and get her ass ATed, i didnt do it, why because of my stupid ass other friends.


What should i do, in terms of the girl being a hazard to my health? I mean goddamn should i risk getting my self hurt to kind others happy, and i dont like her anyway? She is crazy!!! And this is a very first coming from me, hell i dont get pissed off that easy, and i am crazy to, but when you put your hands on me for retarded shit, its over and done. And wait let me tell you something stupid that girl didn't realize. She trying to kill me because i PRETEND put my foot on my sis ass, why dont she do something about the girls that talk about her?

Last Farwell
Whatever comes out my mouth
Pours out my soul
It is everything I love
Everything I know
These are the words
That comes from my soul

This is a good-bye
The first and the last
The last Farwell
To present from past
Remember my words
When time comes to pass

You disrupted soul
You waste of skin
You broken now
Like you were back then

You assume the world
Is against you
But maybe the one
That is against someone is you

You tear down the strong
And Kill the weak
You’re not seeking happiness
What do you seek?

You broken child
You desecrated misfit
Keep believing your right
And you'll never be shit

The pain you cause
To others mind and health
Could never exceed
What you do to yourself

You broken child
I fucking hate you
I want to be the one
Who brutally kills you

You smile endlessly
So god forbidden obliviously
Not knowing the hurt
You put on me

You undermined me
You destroyed my last shred of sanity
You turned me into
A new kind of crazy

I'll break you
You broken child
Because I know, you die
When I smile

P.s Die
And go to hell
You’re a broken child
When else fails

I would go to fudal Japan era. I have always lived that time. When blood was spilled, and the innocent suffered for n0 reason whatso ever. jking

Disclaimer: I don't own this hot hunk...... PS sorry i never finished!!

P.O.V. Jun Su

Hello. My name is Xiah Jun Su…. Well that is my stage name. I perform in a group of guys called DBSK or sometimes we are called TVXQ. Well it doesn’t really mater because almost every single place we go we’re rampaged by a million fan girls. Don’t get me wrong I love my fans, but sometimes I think they love us abit to much. Last time I lost a shirt.

Well anyways, I also live with my group. It is five of us. The first is Max, he’s a shy guy I guess but he is addicted to video games, then there is U-know he is so I love with what we do, and there is also my homie Micky he is lazy sorta and he is an awesome piano player, he tried to teach me once but every single time I hit the wrong key he’d wack me. That is the story of why I fear the piano. Lastly, there is Hero, he is cool, I cannot come into the kitchen when he is in there, he is like a crazy man beast behind the stove. So when everyone is busy I slip away out side to play soccer. (my Favorite sport btw) Then that’s when I met the woman of my dreams…

She was so cute she stood 158.4cm (5 foot 2), long beautiful brown hair, hazel eyes and a she looked of the Asian race. God she looked pretty. I really wanted to talk to her but she caught me so off guard that I got a boner when I saw her. So I followed her around until it went away then I approached her.

“Hi!” I said with a kiddie smile.

She looked and me and got all big eyed like when my fans do when they see us. “Don’t tell that you’re Xiah from DBSK.”

“Yeah that’s me” I held my hand out so she could shake it. She did but then I started to get a bit worried when she sniffed my hand. “uhhh what are you doing?”

“Remembering this moment that I met Jun Su with my nose,” she said continuing her sniff fest.

“uhh ok.” I started to back away, the she looked at me and there was this creepy glint in her eye.

“God! I am so sorry. Umm…. My name is Jia. I am so far pass sorry. You see when I see a hot guy, ok maybe not just a hot guy, but a famous guy I get kind of really weird.” she talked really fast I almost didn’t understand her.

“Its ok, no need to apologized, I have see crazier”

“Great. Sounds dandy”

Like hell I am going to give up on the hottie.

“How about we head over to the tea house?”

“Awesome.”

So we walked over to the tea house.As we walked there girls glanced at me and looked as if they we’re gonna run towards me, but I don’t know what happened they all just stopped in there tracks and backed away slowly. For a moment when they did that I thought my body guard Chester was around, because girls do the same thing when he is around. Right now he is on vacation in America. Anyways we got to the tea house safely. I don’t really know how I managed to ask her here, but at the moment I was frozen like a thief caught on camera naked. How did I forget that I was shy?!

“Wow. Your frozen like a thief caught on camera naked.” she said.

WHAT THE HELL!? How did she know I thought that? Ok this girl I creepin me out. Maybe I should ditch her? Forget it she’s hot!

“uhhhhh, what shall you order, its on me.” I said tring not to sound creeped out or nervous.

“Are you creeped out or nervous?”

OMG how did she do that!?

Yes i am celebrating Cinco de Mayo, usually celebrate it with my neighbors, who are latio and Hispanic.

I have been nearly dyeing to get DBSK's and SP's mailing address. Ladies(or gentle men) if you know anything regarding that please post it here for me and other loyal fans who wIsh to express there love. please! Help! Or if you know of their upcoming planned trips to America don't be shy, tell here. <(^_^<)

I believe i am most like Shuichi Off Gravitation. I try so hard to chase a dream and every time i turn around its another obstacle. Life may throw me a few good things but then there is always a problem..... like Shuichi i am very tried.

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